I read this post today at Rolling Around in My Head (excellent blog to follow, by the way) and it got me thinking.
Of course I wish I wasn't disabled. But I feel I need to elaborate on that. What I wish is that I didn't have pain - who wants to be in pain? I wish I didn't have nightmares - who likes having nightmares? I wish I was able to work, like at a regular job, because I really liked my job when I was a social worker and I still miss it more than 11 years later. I wish I did not need to rely on SSDI - who likes being poor? I mean, I don't need or want a lot of money but I wish I didn't struggle to buy food by the end of the month most months.
But do I wish I didn't have DID? Nah, not really. I don't mind having DID. Sometimes it's... complicated or difficult, but sometimes it comes in pretty handy and sometimes it's even sort of fun. Do I wish I didn't need a service dog? Not really. I like my service dog.
So there are parts of my disability I don't like and wish were different. But that doesn't mean I dislike myself or that I think being disabled is bad.